Past Hole

Tonight,I set up my room.
I open some old bags
Found some birthday gifts in the past years from friends of mine,some birthday cards from them,read it and I put some smiles tonight.
I found a small pinky envelopes,I guest it is a birthday greeting card from one of friend,I open it up.
And some butterflies suddenly fly and play in my stomach.
The small love letter from a man who left me years ago.
I cry,I dont know why.
A past dark hole sleep in my bag under my bed for years.